[Richard] Previously on Grey's Anatomy:
- This is Mary. She Iost consciousness. - How's Shane? My partner?
I didn't want her to see. She might take offense.
- Can you get my wife? - Baby?
You're gonna driII into my skuII?
The navigationaI system is dead?
Damn it, Stan! Stan. Stan.
Can I watch the surgery? Can you sneak me in?
[Izzie] You're busted.
[Meredith] I'm gonna teII him. I don't want him seeing other peopIe.
- What? - Nothing. I'm gonna be Iate.
We need to taIk.
- My wife gets panicky. - I wiII keep her updated.
You seeing anyone?
[groaning]
[# SantogoId: Creator]
[Meredith] At the end of the day,
the experience of practicing medicine bears little resemblance to the dream.
Hey. Are you... Are you... Are you reaIIy OK?
Yeah. Yeah.
AIex. Come on. That was intense. Intense and crazy and just awfuI.
How can you be OK after a day Iike that?
[Meredith] We go into medicine because we want to save lives.
You did a good job today. That was not easy.
What you did was not easy. It was brave.
We go into medicine because we want to do good.
We go into medicine for the rush,
for the high, for the ride.
But what we remember, at the end of most days, are the losses.
What we lie awake at night replaying is the pain we caused.
The ills we couldn't cure.
I don't want you to date other peopIe.
It may not be enough for you, but I'm trying here.
I don't want you to date anybody but me.
The lives we ruined...
...or failed to save.
[Richard] Can I get some heIp?
[Meredith] The end of the day, the reality is nothing like we hope.
The reality is, at the end of the day,
more often than not, turned inside out and upside down.
[sirens bIaring]
Over here! Meredith, get in there! We don't have time to Iose!
OK! I got the shirt open. I'm aImost there!
- [screaming] - Stop! Stop! Stop! HoId stiII!
OK. OK, that's it. I got it. It stopped. I got it.
HoIy crap. My artery bIew.
- Your artery bIew. - I didn't think that wouId happen.
Thought it was something they say might happen
because they have to, but didn't think it'd happen.
Me neither.
- Their IocaI tech's in Spokane. - That's five hours away.
- TeII them I was in somebody's brain? - Yes. The tech is stiII in Spokane.
You can't just puII the probes out and go to a fuII craniotomy?
- No. Why not? - The probe is in the tumors.
PuIIing out without navigation system couId damage brain tissue.
You can't Ieave the probe in without sweIIing.
- [Derek] That's good. What's your name? - Two. Steve! Steve Mostow.
- Dr. Steve Mostow. Intern. - [Derek] Hi, Steve.
Run to the nurses. Make an announcement.
We need computer technicians in OR Three.
- Go fast and scrub in. - [Steve] Yes, sir.
- [Rose] Dr. Shepherd? - Yes.
I did three semesters in computer science before nursing.
I don't know what's wrong, but if it's something reasonabIy basic, I...
I'd feeI better if your voice wasn't shaking.
Shakes when I'm nervous. I'm imperfect.
It doesn't mean I can't fix it.
[Derek] Rose has semesters of computer science at what schooI?
- Santa Cruz. - That's a party schooI.
InsuIt my education or want me to heIp you save your patient?
Who can beat three semesters of computer science at Santa Cruz? Anybody?
- OK. Give it a shot. - I appreciate the vote of confidence.
[Meredith] Can you see anything yet?
Uh, I see the diaphragm moving. Move it up a IittIe more.
- [Richard] Meredith? - I'm working on it!
You're not doing a very good job.
I am doing a damn fine job. Don't you worry.
- Can you... Can you cIose his eyes? - What?
Stan. Can you cIose his eyes?
[Meredith] I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
Meredith, stop. Stop right there. I want to freeze that frame.
Yeah, his pericardium's fuII of bIood.
That's not good. That's not good at aII.
Oxygen, IV start kits. Arnie, monitor.
You, pericardiocentesis kit. His anatomy's aII screwed up
because he's hanging upside down. Get someone from cardio! Go!
I've got Tucker waiting for me and I'm Iate.
Do me a favor and take the patient through to post-op.
- What? - OK, I wanted to say
- when you took me off Hahn's service... - Something's wrong.
- His bIood pressure's bottomed out. - [nurse] I'II hang it. Here you go.
- [George] Dr. BaiIey! - O'MaIIey...
OK. I need you to taIk to Tucker. I need you to ask him to wait.
He's not going to be incIined to, so ask him niceIy.
Can you pIease go and ask him niceIy to wait?
- Yes, ma'am. - I won't be Iong.
[Erica] Do you see this, Stevens? Sternum's cIeaned out.
- Which means we're aImost out of here. - [Mark] Don't want to watch me work?
[Erica] It's offensive, Dr. SIoan. FIat out.
I asked if you wanted to watch me work. Offensive?
You pIay dumb? Does that work for you because of the way you Iook?
- [Mark] What are you taIking about? - If you were homeIy,
you wouId have Iost your job a Iong time ago.
The chief needs you in the ambuIance bay.
- Paramedic with cardiac tamponade. - AIrighty then. Let's go, Stevens.
OK, um...
Nick, can you reach your caII button?
- I think so. - No, no! Don't move that much!
OK.
Uh... just...
Can you reach your phone? Without moving very much.
I think so. I got it.
[Lexie] OK. Good. Good, good, good.
OK, diaI eight, OK? OK.
- Is that eight? - OK. OK.
Put it to my ear, OK?
- [woman] Hello, Nurses Station. - Hi.
Hi, this is Dr. Grey.
Mr. Hanscomb's carotid just bIew and...
Can you page Dr. SIoan for me pIease? And aIso Dr. Yang?
I'm gonna go ahead and caII this a code bIue. Yes. Code bIue.
Can you announce that pIease? Thank you.
- You can put it down. - Code bIue. That means I'm dead, right?
That's what they caII when peopIe go, Iike, fIatIine.
I figure we can use aII the heIp we can get.
[pager beeping]
I don't care who it is. I don't care who it is, JoIene.
I am Ieaving when I am finished.
If the patient is on fire, I'm not scrubbing in.
It's Dr. Yang's. Lexie Grey is paging you 91 1 .
Dr. Yang? Your intern caIIed a code bIue on a patient who is not code bIue.
[Cristina] What? Why wouId she caII a code if...
Go find out.
You needed me here. That's why you puIIed me off of cardio.
No, I'm fine. Go kick some intern butt.
- How you doing, Dr. Grey? - Lexie. I'm OK. Are you OK?
I'm a IittIe freaked out, if I'm being honest.
MostIy because you Iook Iike Carrie at the prom.
- You're wearing haIf my bIood. - Which is why we're hanging more.
- I'm having troubIe getting a vein. - [Lexie] Why?
- HypovoIemic. His veins are fIaccid. - That's not a nice thing to say.
That's not a nice thing to say at aII.
Ow! Ow!
- Son of a bitch! - It's OK! It's OK!
- It's OK! - Stop the bIeeding!
- My hand sIipped. I got it. - That can't happen anymore.
- AppIy steady, firm pressure.
I caIIed for SIoan. ShouId we take him to an OR?
No, there's no OR. I was just down there.
TyIer? You shouId run and get some more bIood. Just in case, OK?
- AppIy pressure. I'II get SIoan. - Leaving?
I'II be right back. You're doing this.
[Mark] You seeing this, Karev? How I'm tightening the cabIe by hand?
[AIex] Yeah.
- [Mark] That's my face. - What?
In the gaIIery. I buiIt that face. That's Jane Doe.
The one with the amnesia. She a surgeon?
- [AIex] Uh, I don't... - You are so busted.
Nick Hanscomb's carotid bIew.
Karev, irrigate thoroughIy, finish up, pack the wound.
- Leaving? - Other guy can't survive.
- There's no OR avaiIabIe. - This one wiII be.
Get this room turned around ASAP. I'm bringing down my carotid bIeed.
Tucker! Hey.
She's busy, right? She can't make Iunch?
She can make a sIightIy Iater Iunch. She's in surgery.
- AIways is. - Taking a IittIe Ionger.
AIways does.
She's having a reaIIy bad day.
She's saving the Iife of a white supremacist,
which is not a good day. So she asked me to ask you
if you wouIdn't mind waiting a IittIe whiIe Ionger.
PIease? She did said pIease.
Which, as you may know, is not a word she uses that frequentIy.
She reaIIy is sorry. It shouIdn't be much Ionger.
Fine. But teII Miranda I said don't keep me waiting Iong. PIease.
OK.
[girI] Lucy.
If it's aII right, I'II update Mr. NoIston's famiIy
and meet you in the ambuIance bay.
He's your patient. Keep the famiIy informed?
Think Iike a surgeon. You're thinking Iike a sociaI worker.
If you want to be a sociaI worker, save yourseIf effort
because the training is two years, not 1 2.
Want to be a surgeon, you can update the famiIy when the crisis has passed.
You're right. AbsoIuteIy. I'm sorry. I...
- [Derek] Steve. - Yes, sir?
- Did you bring anybody with you? - No.
The nurses made an announcement. I waited, no one came.
- [Derek] Rose? - [Rose] Damn. Damn it. Damn it.
- Rose? - I don't have the steadiest hand.
I need to reconnect wires, and when you taIk to me, it is Iess steady.
- It's about the wires? - I think so. I'm pretty sure.
- [Derek] I'II do it. - What?
I'II do it. You don't have steady hands.
- Because I'm nervous. - Got that.
Let me take care of the wires. I'm a neurosurgeon. Steady hands.
You're hoIding the Ieads in the brain.
OK. Steve, how's your hand? Is it steady?
- HeII, yes, sir. - Better be,
or you kiII my patient. I need you to hoId this very stiII.
- Yes, sir. - Very, very stiII. Good.
SteriIe sIeeves, gIoves, pIease. TeII me what I got to do.
- You taIked to Tucker? - Yes.
As Iong as you're out soon, he'II wait.
Mother of... The hepatic vein was injured.
- Can you check for a new murmur? - Checking now.
O'MaIIey, go taIk to Tucker. Just ask him to wait a IittIe Ionger.
- I just scrubbed in. - O'MaIIey, ask him!
Yes, ma'am.
[door opens, cIoses]
A person can onIy rise so high.
Now, I'm rising above, but there's a ceiIing and I'm about to hit it!
- [machine beeping] - Let me guess, air emboIus?
[sighs]
We're about to start the pericardiocentesis,
but with the position of his body, the bIood won't be pooIed to the heart...
I'd stiII use the subxiphoid rather than the parasternaI.
Right. OK. Meredith, did you hear that?
- Yeah. Is the kit ready yet? - I'm getting it ready for you now.
[Meredith] How you doing, Ray?
You've got to be carefuI with this technique.
If you aim the needIe incorrectIy,
you couId nick the very thin-waIIed right atrium.
- Cause a cardiac rupture. - Rupture, a tension pneumothorax.
There's about six different ways she couId kiII him.
- Are they taIking about me? - No. Don't Iisten to them, Ray.
Dr. Hahn?
Shut up.
Sir, you're gonna be fine.
Stevens, go get me an 1 8-gauge needIe before this man's heart expIodes.
Got it.
- How you doing, Karev? - Yeah, good. I'm fine.
My nose itches. Itches Iike crazy.
That's the anxiety. Can't scratch it, so it itches.
[machine beeping]
- Whoa! What did you do? - I was irrigating.
- [CaIIie] I need more suction. - Coming from the side of his chest.
I think his heart's starting to bIeed.
Hang a unit of bIood! Page Hahn and SIoan now!
Right away.
TyIer, couId you get me more gauze, pIease?
Why do you need more gauze? 'Cause I'm bIeeding?
- I'm stiII bIeeding? - We have bIood going in, too, Nick.
Is it going in as fast as it's going out?
I'm asking because I'm starting to feeI, Iike, queasy. And weak.
Maybe Iike a person who's Iosing a Iot of bIood.
OK, I'm transferring now, Nick. You ready?
[Nick] Yeah.
Lexie? ShouId I be caIIing peopIe?
ShouId I be caIIing my famiIy or somebody?
I think... I think the bIeeding's stopped.
- How you doing, Nick? - Dr. SIoan. It's Dr. SIoan.
- I think the bIeeding stopped. - You OK?
- Do I Iook OK? - ActuaIIy, you do.
- You've got bIeeding under controI. - Why wouId it stop?
The heraId bIeed, which means there's a possibiIity
- of it bIeeding. - I'm gonna get it cIosed up.
- [Nick and Lexie] There's no OR. - There wiII be in ten minutes.
Get a pressure dressing on this wound. Get him prepped straight to OR Three.
Make sure it's cIeared out. Good work, Grey.
Thank you.
Hey.
I'm in Iove with you now. I've forgotten entireIy about my ex.
[pager beeping]
- Come on! Are you kidding me? - What?
I have a patient on the tabIe... I got to go.
- Erica! - Page the cardio feIIow,
then book an OR. Have it waiting when they get him free.
Why am I not surprised?
Dr. BaiIey is very sorry. She's very, very sorry.
- I'm out of here. - She just asked me to ask
if you couId wait Ionger. She's aImost done with the surgery.
It's just more compIicated than she expected, but she is aImost done.
Fine, I'II wait. But you teII her I'm tired
of her choosing everything over our marriage.
The Iast time. I'm finished.
TeII her the onIy reason I'm staying here is to teII her that myseIf.
- What the heII did you do, Karev? - Nothing. I cut the cabIe.
You cut the cabIe? Showing off for your girIfriend?
Any idea how screwed you are?
[CaIIie] It's not his fauIt. I'm hoIding this guy's coronary.
- Did somebody page Hahn? - [Erica] What the heII happened?
- Graft bIew. - Damn it!
- [AIex] If you need me to... - [Mark] I need you to stay quiet.
- Get more suction in here. - [Erica] Just hoId onto that.
O'MaIIey?
- Your husband is waiting. - Good.
- He's waiting and... - Look, I heard you.
Why aren't you scrubbed in? I couId use a hand.
He said something about you choosing everything over your marriage.
He said that?
- What eIse did he say? - I think that was about it.
You think or you know?
He said this was the Iast time, and he was finished.
I'm in surgery, O'MaIIey.
Did you teII him that I'm trying to save a man's Iife?
- Yes. - That I want to be there
with him now, but if I were to Ieave, this man wouId die?
- TeII him that? - Yeah. Yes.
You need to go back out there and teII him that I took a vow.
A vow to save Iives.
Remember that he aIso took a vow. For better or for worse.
You teII him that it's his job, as a husband, to understand that.
You teII him that I'm standing by my vow. For better or worse.
TeII him I'm hoIding him to his vow.
You teII him if he's thinking about Ieaving right now,
that he might find himseIf hurt and wounded and needing an operation.
And he may not get a surgeon who is as married to her vows as I am.
You teII him that!
- Can I just go do some charts? - Go!
- It's in. - It's in?
The wire's in.
- Steve, are you stiII? - Yes, sir. Very stiII.
[Rose] Stop Iooking at me Iike I kiIIed your patient. I am not a technician.
- I did my best. - You didn't.
Yes, I did do my best, damn it!
CaIm down. Take a deep breath and think.
What did you miss? What are you forgetting?
- You forgot the restart button? - I forgot to press restart.
[Derek] Yeah, working. It's working.
It's working. It's working. [chuckIes]
Santa Cruz is not just a party schooI.
- Dr. Shepherd? - Yes?
Your sIeeves.
This was never my pIan. To die this way.
- You're not dying, Nick. - [Cristina] You're going to the OR.
I know. That's what I'm saying.
I think we kind of have some say. Or at Ieast a feeIing.
But I never had that feeIing, so I can't die, right?
I don't feeI good. I feeI...
- [Lexie] Oh! Nick? Nick? - Can you squeeze my hand?
- Oh, my God! What happened? - The bIood to his brain...
It Iooks Iike he had a stroke. Let's go.
Let's move him carefuIIy. Let's go.
You can't cry, Lexie. This isn't over. You can't cry.
Hey, you need to find the xiphoid process. You feeI it?
- Got it. - Go two finger breadths to the Ieft
- of the xiphoid. - I'm there.
[Richard] Here.
- Eighteen-gauge. - [Meredith] Yeah.
- That is a very big needIe. - I know. I'm sorry.
AngIe the needIe toward the Ieft shouIder. Don't stab.
Don't hit the ventricIe, don't drop the Iung.
- That wouIdn't heIp matters either. - I changed my mind. I want out.
This is gonna heIp you, Ray. I'm gonna go on three, OK?
- One, two... - No, wait.
TeII Stan's wife I'm sorry. TeII Sara I'm sorry about Stan.
TeII her yourseIf. One, two...
Wait. Wait.
We're running out of time.
- Just wait. - OK.
- [Richard] What's taking so Iong? - He's not ready.
I'm trying not to be scared. I don't want to die scared.
- I want to not be scared. - [Richard] Ray, Iisten to me.
It's good to be scared.
It means you stiII have something to Iose.
Yeah? Are you scared?
AII the time.
OK. That's good.
OK, I'm ready.
But don't count. Just do it. Do it so I don't know it's...
[gasps]
The infection went to his heart. His hack of a surgeon didn't check grafts.
ShouId've caught it. ShouId've checked. I missed.
Damn it, how did I miss it? Stupid, stupid, stupid.
- [Mark] That's fascinating, Dr. Hahn. - What?
You're as unkind to yourseIf as you are to everyone.
[CaIIie] SIoan.
Dr. SIoan, his artery bIew and he appears to be having a Ieft-sided CVA.
- Where is he? - You toId me bring him here.
- Hahn, you cIose? - No.
Yang, get him to a steriIe procedure room. Run!
- Let's go. - I can heIp. What do you want me to do?
- AnesthesioIogist, nurse, equipment. - [CaIIie] I'm on it. Stay with Hahn.
This man has four chiIdren. He has four chiIdren.
I feeI Iike I'm going in too far.
PuII back! PuII back!
- PuII back! PuII back! - Chief, what am I doing?
Too far in. There's some ST eIevation. Try angIing more forward.
I got it! I got it! Ray?
That feeIs good. I can breathe.
He's aImost stabIe! Get ready to cut him out!
AII right. AII right.
We're gonna get you out of here. We're getting you out of here right now.
- You're bIeeding. - It's Ray's bIood.
I can see that.
It couId use a coupIe of stitches.
But you stayed caIm and focused
and efficient in a very stressfuI situation.
That's impressive.
I was scared.
You did it anyway. Like I said, impressive.
Do not teII me that there isn't an OR.
This is for the chief. A paramedic's Iife is on the Iine.
- You need to find one now. - I'II see where we are.
Dr. Stevens? Thank God. How is he?
I... I beIieve he's stiII in surgery.
- But I don't know. - You don't know?
Why don't you...? You said that you were gonna keep me informed...
I'm sorry. I'm on another case, but I was gonna check back...
- You're on another case? - I'm sorry.
I have four kids here. I have four terrified chiIdren who think that
their dad's gonna die. Did you have instructors
who didn't teach you how to be a doctor,
or reaIIy bad parents who didn't teach you how to be a decent human?
- Stevens, OR Two is cIearing out now. - Thank you.
My husband, Jacob NoIston, went into surgery hours ago.
WouId you pIease just find someone who can teII me if he's dead or aIive?
- She said that? - If you couId wait a few more minutes,
you guys can taIk to each other. Because things get Iost in transIation
because this is cIearIy not a way to have what is
- a very, very important conversation. - It's cIearIy not very important.
Our marriage is faIIing apart and she sends you.
Tucker. She's in surgery.
She's IiteraIIy saving a Iife and she's gonna be here soon.
She's aIways saving a person's Iife. She'II aIways be here soon.
You go ask her, when exactIy is soon gonna come?
Excuse me. You're... You're the one who came to get me.
- Who toId me about Stan. - Yes.
- Is Ray...? - He's in surgery.
OK. I have to go.
I have to get out of here, so...
Look, can you teII him that I'm sorry?
I can't stay here? I just can't come back here right now?
Ray wanted me to teII you that he's sorry too.
He's sorry he couIdn't save Stan.
He wanted me to teII you that in case he didn't make it.
[# NataIie WaIker: Circles]
- You think he's not gonna make it? - I hope he makes it.
But you won't be here, so...
My husband is dead.
He's dead. Somewhere in this hospitaI.
How am I supposed to stay here?
I don't know.
But I know that if Ray makes it,
he's gonna wake up and he's gonna have no one.
And you're gonna go home and you're gonna have...
No one.
I think it's better to have someone. Even if it hurts.
Even if it's the most painfuI thing you have to do.
Even if it's the most painfuI thing you've ever had to do.
I think it's better to have someone.
See this skin, O'MaIIey?
It Iooks a IittIe jagged.
Does it Iook jagged to you? Because if it is, jagged,
I'm going to have to reposition the incision
so that it approximates more correctIy.
If I do that, this man's swastika tattoo
might be unrecognizabIe.
- Yeah, it's a IittIe jagged. - I thought so too.
- He Ieft, right? - Yes, he Ieft.
Ten-bIade.
[machine beeping]
[Richard] More Iap pads, Stevens. Pack them aII around the heart.
[Richard] Suction.
Come on, Ray. Fight.
- [machine beeping] - You wiII not die. You wiII not die.
You wiII not die. You wiII not die.
You wiII not die.
[machine beeping]
Don't do this, Mary. Come on, don't do this.
I need more Iight. Can I get more Iight?
- Come on! - [flatline tone]
- He's coding. - [Lexie] Come on.
Live, pIease Iive. PIease.
PIease Iive.
[flatline tone continues]
He Iooks bad. He Iooks reaIIy bad.
His heart was severeIy damaged. And his Iungs were compromised.
But he's young and strong and our hope is that he'II be just fine.
Ray?
I'm here.
WeII, your Iiver had more damage than we saw on the CT
and then we found a perforation in your boweI.
But we took care of it aII, and you shouId have a fuII recovery.
Not a fuII recovery.
Dr. BaiI... She did this on purpose, right?
I don't understand. You have a bIack partner, right?
- Yeah. - Mary?
Yeah. Do you know how she is?
Are you two are friends?
Look, I'm not the deviI, OK?
I'm just a guy with a beIief system.
Mary's a nice girI. We save Iives together. That's a good time.
If she wanted to marry my brother, I'd have a probIem with that.
But so wouId a Iot of peopIe.
I'm not that much different than most of the peopIe that you know.
WeII, Dr. BaiIey did save your Iife today.
A bIack woman saved your Iife at a great personaI cost.
Next time you're Iooking at your tattoo and you're thinking
how much better white guys are than everyone, think about that.
Because between you and me? If I had been aIone in that OR,
you'd probabIy be dead right now. And, since we're sharing beIief systems,
I beIieve if you were dead, the worId wouId be a better pIace.
How's he doing?
He's OK. Surgery was pretty hairy. He bIew a graft when we were cIosing.
- But he's starting to raIIy. - Good. That's good.
- What are you doing here? - I was just checking...
We did fine without your heIp. Do you mind?
You're not heading home?
Just easier, at this point, to stay here untiI Tucker's asIeep.
You know, I rose above too today.
- Yes, you did. - You were having a hard day.
You were busy rising above. But so was I.
Which is why I haven't said anything.
But now the day is over and I'm done.
- Excuse me? - PuIIing me off of Hahn's surgery
was an abuse of power. You know, you needed heIp, OK.
But you used me. Because of the coIor of my skin.
I mean, you compromised the quaIity of my education because of my coIor.
I resent it.
- You saved her Iife. - No, I fixed her brain.
Restored motor skiIIs. A stressfuI, extremeIy difficuIt procedure, but no.
You saved her Iife.
OK.
Thanks. That was...
OK.
- Your voice is shaking. - I'm an imperfect person.
Are his parents coming?
They're on a pIane from CaIifornia. You gonna wait?
Yeah. I'm gonna wait.
- Hey. - I don't want you to date other peopIe.
It may not be enough for you, but I'm trying here.
So I don't want you to date anybody but me. That's it.
Except... I'm scared as heII to want you.
But here I am wanting you anyway.
And fear means I have something to Iose, right?
And I don't want to Iose you.
- Meredith. - Don't. Don't say anything.
I'm gonna Ieave and you can say something tomorrow.
That's progress, right?
Hey. Hey. Hey. Are you...? Are you reaIIy OK?
Yeah. Yeah.
AIex. Come on. That was intense.
Intense and crazy and just awfuI.
How can you be OK after a day Iike that?
AIex. AIex. Why won't you taIk to me?
What do you want to taIk about, Rebecca?
How a guy aImost bIed out whiIe I watched?
How I got suspended because you were there?
- Ava. It's Ava. Not Rebecca. - Right. You're pIaying dress up.
You're here pIaying dress up. You have a husband, Rebecca.
You have a baby. And I have a Iife.
That girI you were taIking to when pIaying med student?
I'm screwing her. She might be a bigger wreck than I am,
but she's not married. She's not gonna get me suspended.
She's not pretending to be somebody she's not.
- AIex... - Ask yourseIf what you're doing here.
Because, I think if you can get honest,
if you couId just teII the damn truth for one minute,
I think you have to admit you're not here to taIk.
You did a good job today.
That was not easy. What you did was not easy.
It was brave.
We kiIIed him.
The hospitaI...
SIoan, us...
We were not prepared.
Yeah.
Yeah, that happens sometimes.
That's...
Do you have any idea how backwards that is?
We heIp more than we hurt.
I have no one.
This is gonna sound bizarre.
I reaIize, at this point, that this is gonna sound bizarre,
but any chance you peopIe want to get a drink with me?
- Why wouId we want to do that? - She's saying she needs a friend.
- OK. Fine. Let's drink. - You won't hit on me?
- I can't promise that. - If I say pIease?
He stiII can't promise that.
Fine.
[# Sara MeIson: Feel It Coming]
Hey. I brought suppIies.
[Meredith] Some days, the world seems upside down.
She's got no one.
[sighs] I'm drinking.
Are you drinking, Lexie?
Yeah. A drink wouId be good.
[knock on door]
Hey.
I was Hahn's right hand today.
That's good, right? That's great.
I think a patient feeIs better if they know their kids aren't terrified.
They're more IikeIy to puII through surgery
if their wives are not panicked. Those things matter.
WeII, they do matter.
I'm never gonna be Cristina.
Not gonna happen. I'm never gonna be Erica Hahn.
I am not kick-ass.
Thank God for that.
I Iove you.
We're not gonna make this work, are we?
Marriage is hard. I mean, even when it's right.
It's hard.
And... the next time I do it,
I just want it to be forever.
And I don't think it's our chemistry.
I think it's our timing.
But I don't think it's our chemistry.
So we're saying maybe someday?
Yeah. Yeah, we're saying maybe someday.
[Meredith] Come on, Izzie.
Dance party.
You want to dance?
I wiII if you want me to.
[Meredith] And then, somehow, improbably
and when you least expect it,
the world rights itself again.